Interesting how experience can rock your perspective. I learned something new today. Apparently your body changes every seven years or so (or so they tell me--the science jury is still out on that.)
I used to be a relatively even, emotionally stable girl. (I can picture a smirk on my brother's face as I write.) OK maybe I was fooling myself, but I thought my schedule was a secret. Not that I was trying to hide it, but it just wasn't noticeable.
But good gravy!!!! PMS is a real thing and I don't just mean the Hollywood version. Last go-round I felt overwhelmed by the littlest things and was on the verge of tears all day. I had no idea what was happening or what was wrong with me! Today I was frustrated and just plain grouchy...ALL day! Sure I have off moments, but ALL day? I was even grouchy when my sweet sister made me breakfast. What is this emotional/hormonal rollercoaster?!? And of course, being the logical person that I am, I only become more frustrated because the cause of my frustration is piddly.
But the weird part is God created me, us, this way. I'm not making excuses by any means (other than maybe to eat a bowl of ice cream). And yes this may be an opportunity for your man to respond more tenderly toward you. But I am not off the hook. The extra self-control, character, and prayer it takes to get through a hormonally charged day - is REAL. Ladies, I'm sorry for judging you. And guys...I'm just sorry.
I wonder if this will become my monthly reminder to lean into Him? Lord give me the self-control and grace needed for today. Help me to trust You fully, knowing I can't trust myself.