You know that moment when someone says or does something and it’s as if they hit a tripwire? Your emotional sirens instantly start going off. The camera of life pans out and you feel like a fly on the wall of your own life – forced to wrestle yourself back to sane reality.
I’ve had two of those recently. Both times I knew the wise response needed, but something was screaming on the inside. It’s as if half my brain was fighting the other. I can’t win in a fight against myself, only Truth allows me to still come out on top.
As I brought my distraught self to the Lord, He loving gave me a new perspective. All of the negative, yuck feelings were replaced with peace, compassion, and grace. I no longer felt trapped by the circumstances, but was allowed to see a bigger picture of what God was doing. It was never about me! (I had siblings; you’d think I would’ve learned life doesn’t revolve around me. I still forget.) God was allowing me to be on the sidelines of His work. Where God is at work there are always people involved – so it might be messy – but I shouldn’t take that personally.
Isaiah 26:3 You will keep in perfect peace those whose minds are steadfast, because they trust in you.